Well I won't say that I feel sorry for your condition please forgive me for being little blunt but I'm really touched by the way have expressed your feelings for him. Thats something too great of you. Don't share anything on the internet share it with any close friend of yours or may be with your T ok if it is not helping than swtich to another T or may be try to find a friend in your ownself. I have been through so many hard times.. specially financially and in my relationships and by the grace of Almighty I broke most of the chains and I don't want to cry any more. If I can be of anyhelp than I would love to be there to help you out.

But just remember one thing which is my punch line for sometime

Destiny is not a matter of chance,
it is a matter of choice;
it is not a thing to be waited for,
it is a thing to be achieved.
and I have chosen Mine...that is......(make him your destiny)

and it is a very famous saying of confucious that "If you look down in your heart and you don't see anything bad than why to worry about and what to be afraid of?"

So just relax and take a deep breath sometimes you don't need a T.. you can help yourself may be this is the time...

Please Stand up...

A well Wisher.