Hi smartiesparty and welcome to pc. I like your screen name. It is cute. I am so sorry you are having so much pain and suffering. I know depression is a mean beast. For starters, if your therapist is not helpful, is there a way to find a different therapist? I also understand it is painful when a relationship with someone special ends. There are other medicines for depression besides the SSRI's. Also, it helps some to talk to others and posting here helps too. You will find you are not alone. There are many of us going thru similar things and we understand how depression feels.