thanks tranquility,splitimage.Raynaadi, it means a lot to me that you replied.Some ppl take sobriety for granted. and I didn't like admitting it can still be tough after 23 years. Some of my friends still get me to try drinking again but I know from my family that a nil by mouth approach is best. ...my struggle against an addictive personality or genetic inheritance still goes on...and can be tough at times. ....thanks again and luv to all those struggling out there...luv Jjulia.