Thank you.

"Big bold expectations" - like someone saying hello. Better just to hole up, shut up, and wait for the end.

And - I'm not bipolar. I have a PD, not a brain chemical issue, so meds don't do anything. Sometimes I suck it up better, but PD's are permanent, incurable, you just have to learn to manage them.

How I've chosen to manage my PD has basically thrown me up against a cliff. Possibly, I could go back and find a new path, but I'd have to completely undo everything I've done in the past, rip apart all of my coping mechanisms, and take a chance on new ones. I picked the most promising path the first time. The chances are not good if I give it another go. The best option is to stick to the edge of my cliff, accept it, and try to find some satisfaction in knowing this is the choice I have made.