I am so sorry

I left my first therapist for the reasons you mentioned. My "Therapeutic Relationship" was the worst thing that ever happened to me. I regressed, became completely dependent, and felt crippled under the power differential. The day I quit was one of the most painful, yet liberating experiences I have ever had.

My advice - if it's causing you pain, take a break from it, or try out somebody else and see how it feels. No relationship should make you feel like you're not good enough to be comforted, touched, or held. The therapeutic set-up can be outright cruel.