Thanks ruh roh... I may just do that if I share them. Hand them over one at a time. I thought about scanning them and Emailing them to her instead, so I could write a brief description under each. It's so stupid I even think this way. Seriously.

Puzzlebug, thank you. You have always been a good support to me on the boards. I feel a lot like you do. So how long have you been out of therapy? The scary thing for me is just what you said. I could quit, and just keep moving on with my life the way it is, but I would walk away more damaged than when I came in. I keep hoping if I stick it out I will "be healed." After all, I feel like I have been hurt further there. Like ruh roh said, she did encourage a level of closeness she wasn't willing to maintain. And when she took it away, it was with no discussion at all. What I think, how I felt, doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. But my level of self worth went down a few dozen notches after that. I didn't deserve it, I guess. I told her I wish it never happened, because I was just fine before she introduced that level of care. She said she's never been physical like that with anyone, until me. I asked her "and what made ME so damn special?"