Because I don't like talking about what happened and talking about it only brings back all the bad feelings again and every time you go to them you have to talk about things and I don't really like it and I'm not good at talking out loud I can type things or write things but I don't like talking.Basically I have bottled up everything for the last few years and it has been getting worse and worse now.I don't want to end up in icu again.