I got a text earlier saying my Uncle Joe will possibly have a kidney transplant today! Hes been waiting for years with only one kidney and on dialysis for this possibility of good health! Im so scared for him and excited too. I cried, a lot when I got the text. I was in a restaurant and obviously made a bit of a scene from my table. Oops. Im waiting for a call saying hes absolutely having the surgery before heading to the hospital (Its 2 hours away and Id need to take my grandparents.) Its so scary. Im worried about him.

At the same time today I am sad and feel a bit down. Im having intrusive thoughts I DON'T want. Im hoping they go away.