Hopefulgirl I tried a few T's before I found one I felt comfortable with. Like Divine, it had to be a woman, and a bit older than me, who had similarities...I found her

And, even after a year and four months, I still have to write things down. I couldn't say them aloud. T reads them (she always asks if I want to read it, then if she should read it aloud, then I say she needs to read it to herself and she does), then sometimes we discuss it, sometimes not. It's fine to just write things down, paint, draw, whatever works for you. You will find a way.
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