Ultimately, it was the pain of my transference feelings and finally accepting that NO MATTER WHAT, my therapist would/could never be my..... fill in the blank, anything except therapist....lover, mother, friend ....the pain - that caused me to end therapy.

Couldn't take it anymore. My heart ached (bled) when I was with her and a whole lot of the time I wasn't with her.

Too much. I'm better now.
Only you will decide to stay or to go. It took me a long time to decide.

Try not to be so harsh on yourself. Your feelings are normal.