Hey Love,
I don't normally respond to threads on here, but your struck a chord with me. I felt so so much shame about my ED in the beginning. Eventually I was called out for it, and kind of forced to talk about it. That was traumatic at the time, but it's gotten SO much easier to talk about it over time. Right now, you have a choice to talk about it on purpose! No one's forcing you, and you are in control.

What are your fears around telling her? Sometimes naming them takes away a little bit of their power.

Could you practice writing the letter to your T and then sending it to me? Just a random stranger who doesn't know who you are, and has an ED (in recovery) myself? If it helps, I can even tell you some of my super-shame ED moments.

Please let me know if there's any way I can support you in reaching out. You don't have to live with your ED forever, and it's so so hard to make things get better without any help.