My ex husband has put me through hell. He was abusive, controlling and all of the other things that narcissistic sociopaths like him come with. He took my son from me and for the past 13 years has continued to make my life hell. And to boot, hes not a good parent. He has never changed, repeating the same patterns with many other women after me. Nothing bad has happened to him so far. I am certainly not perfect but i know i am a good person and i have a kind heart. I dont derserve everything he has put me through. Let alone my son. Everyone has always told me, dont worry, he'll get what he deserves. But here we are 13 years later and he is still thriving, getting everything he wants. Good job, and still getting child support from me, while i struggle. Ive tried thinking positive, tried praying for him as well as for me, but nothing seems to make me feel better about the whole thing. He has caused me immeasurable pain and trauma and its not over. I try not to think about it too much or feel sorry for myself, because i do have blessings. But i get so overwhelmed sometimes that i think about ending my life over this. Sometimes its too much to cope with. I have so much hate for him but i know its not healthy for me to feel that way. How do i let go of this and forgive him for my sake and my son's sake? Esp since i have to deal with him for the rest of my life being that we have a kid together??