Your post is eye-opening...thank you! You gave me a lot to think about....some soul searching to do... I guess the reason I stay...short answer...I'm attached to her. And I do have a lot invested. It was great work getting here. I try to figure out if my emotions are more to dealing with the subject matter in therapy, vs. this other stuff. I really have fought this. I've really tried to put in an effort. I've disclosed some ENORMOUS things to her recently, things I have never spoken of before, EVER. I pushed myself...figured if I just forced myself back into therapy I'd get over this crap and keep going. Maybe this is all triggered by her vacation, I don't know. But I still never recovered from what happened in March... if I quit, I'll convince myself I've failed, but if I stay....well, I keep feeling this way. Maybe I'll feel this way if I leave, too. I'm sure I will be reading your post over and over again, trying to figure things out in my own head. Thank you!