Sorry for my extremely delayed response, I was very busy with college and stuff.

What do you mean by closeness? What would it be like for you to feel connected with someone?

By 'closeness' I mean like somebody that knows you inside out. Somebody you can trust through and through. Like when you meet them you do not need to hide anything from them. Idk it's hard to explain but somebody that you just feel 'connected' to. Somebody that I dont feel the need to pull away from because it seems like when I get too close from somebody I start to ignore them after a bit even if they didn't do anything. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve friends or anything.

What would you want to say--keeping in mind that people do not judge you here?

Over here I am able to say whatever I want - even the silliest thing. I feel so anonymous here because nobody knows me so they can't exactly judge me. If I feel threatened here it is easy for me to leave (no, I don't feel threatened here at all). Nobody knows me so they can't track me or anything. It's an easy escape.