Update: I was put back on Effexor, the drug I stopped taking back last summer/early fall, because the Remeron I was put on just wasn't working and I was profoundly depressed. When I took the first dose of Effexor, my mood lifted within an hour! I was amazed and have done much better since, but I have since learned that all my my extreme depression and anxiety over the last six plus months was due to Effexor withdrawal! It is supposed to take up to a month to start working but it worked within an hour; I was like a junkie in withdrawal getting a hit of the drug! So, now I have two drugs to try to get off of!

I do plan to taper off these drugs very slowly once I have been stable for a bit.

The EBT has been working. My negative inner voice has been quieted, and I am identifying and working on some issues that have plagued me all my life. I am feeling better more of the time. I have let go of the "popping to 1" frustration, putting more value in the process of expressing negative emotions in a constructive way, identifying what they are about, and moving on from there. I would say the program has been very valuable to me.