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Old Jun 19, 2015, 11:32 PM
MarleyCat MarleyCat is offline
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I too have extremely low self esteem due to verbal abuse...I would even go as far as calling it self loathing. I watched my mom by physically and verbally abused as well my whole life. I think in part the low self esteem comes not only from being verbally abused but also from not having good role models in the self esteem department. We never learned the tools or skills to feel good about ourselves because our mothers didnt have them either.

I push people away as well and this has been particularly hard in my relationship with my boyfriend. The old you cant love someone until you love yourself really comes in to play. What I can say is that you deserve love and attention and companionship in your life. You are worth it !!The abusers in our lives prey on people and make you feel like **** to feel better about themselves.

Sometimes there are free counselling programs or ones available for a lower cost based on wage. I wonder if there are any where you live? You can even do a few sessions of you can gather any money together and learn a few skills in a short amount of time to help you along.

I hope one day we can both love ourselves fully and be happy with who we are....I guess my point in this post is just to let you know you are not alone! I pretty much spot on feel as you do.