Since I just lost a post with a detailed account of our conversation (grrr...), I will have to make this short and sweet. I told my mom that my pdoc may suggest the hospital when I see him on Monday. It was immediately ugly. What was her response? Exasperation and bitterness. She was truly perplexed and intensely angry. She repeatedly asked why I was telling her this and what did I want her to do? She asked why do people go the the hospital anyway? She told me there was no way I could go because she'll be on vacation and there would be no one to help with the kids. She said I seemed better. She made crass after crass comment and asked crass after crass question. Then I started to cry and she said "Oh my God," threw her hands in the air, rolled her eyes and proceeded with "Are you really crying? I am about to leave for vacation and you're going to do this now?" So, I wiped away my tears. We changed subjects to cool down and it was much improved when we revisited the conversattion. I told her I was suddenly so much worse because that woman's suicide so deeply disturbed me. I started crying again and this time she said she was understood. We ended on a much better note but, she was still offended and outraged at my nerve.