Thank you all. I am super happy with new T. I can't believe my luck with finding her. It has really helped make this grieving process easier.

I think I can trust her. It's hard though to trust anyone after what happened. But one day at a time, right? So far, so good.

I can honestly say I'm proud of myself and how well I'm doing. I still miss ex-T, and am still dealing with the sadness and anger. I also still daydream about ex-T and think about there being a possibility for contact in the future. But I have definitely come a long way the past 14 weeks. I don't think I could have done this w/o all the support I recieved.

I just keep trying to move forward, trying to be patient with myself, and reaching out when I need it. If I've come this far in 14 weeks, I have high hopes for 14 weeks from now. I have even started a huge step: quiting smoking. I start today.

I'm just trying.