I'm sorry that you feel this way Valentina.

I've had some pretty bad pdoc's in the past, and I'm sorry that you don't seem to be all that comfortable with yours, in the sense that you feel judged.

I've done some pretty crazy things with my current pdoc. But I don't think that she judges me, no. I look at it this way. In order for us to have the diagnosis of BP, we are going to share symptoms in common. The manner in which they present themselves may be somewhat different and our stories somewhat unique, but for those of us who have experienced mania, we may have very well made risky decisions, done things without foreseeing the consequences of our actions, been overly talkative etc.

You're not alone in this.

Maybe it's to do with the "mannerism" of your pdoc, how they are portraying themselves to you, or so to speak. I guess not all pdocs have what I would call a good bedside manner.