My biggest fear is that one day I'll completely lose control and do something to hurt someone. The concept of mental illness is just a terrifying one, that it can actually mess with who you are. I've seen what my situation can do to people firsthand. My father acted just like I do now when he was in his 20's, grew up living the same exact life and handling it in the same exact way and then one day, something kicked in and he did things that people always tell me they "never thought he'd be capable of." I'm terrified that will be me.