Thanks for this site. Yes, I guess I do belong and have my whole life. Everyone knew what was wrong with me and what it would take to get better. But I never got better. Oh, I quit this and quit that and took this med for awhile and would feel different enough and calm enough to tell them that it was working. But mostly I lived with this brain that tried to understand itself but could not. And I still do. But I am here. I'm still going. I'm still taking another handful of pills that help me from acting my crazy to the world. But I am here. And reading your post was the best therapy I've had in a long time. Yes I am crazy as a loon! But I, unlike some of you poor people I've read about, have some people in my life who care about me. How they still do I don't know. But I have reached the point in my disease, whatever it really is today, to keep trying for them. Maybe I'll try for myself tomorrow. Sorry for the long reply,but your site gave me better insight to myself and for that I thank you, thank you, thank you. Gregg