Thanks for the response. I was debating the male/female thing a bit. In some ways, I often feel more comfortable talking to guys, so a male T could possibly be better. But then there's the whole transference issue. (And it's not like I could base it on appearance--I definitely didn't feel attracted to MC when I first met him.) Of course, I could have maternal transference with a female T, too. These are the first T's I've had any sort of transference with, really, which could be something about them or just about how long I've been seeing each of them (or both).

And you're right that the type of person I'm describing might be all wrong for me. I just know that someone telling me that you can't control your feelings/that feelings are neither good nor bad--they just are, and then feeling like I'm being a bit pushed away because of those feelings, isn't working for me either.