I was trying to follow up on doing an exercise by making a collage of things I appreciate. I was doing it on my iPad art program but felt compelled to include the people who were currently hurtful . Oh my goodness , it became an exercise in how to hurt me. I wish I had just stuck with the things that are better now. I was just concerned that somehow someone left out of the picture might see it. I was concerned about privacy but when I put them in under the current circumstances the pain went up. I wish I had trusted that what I was doing on my picture file would be okay because they were the things that were encouraging me. I deleted the whole thing because it hurts. It only shows how much I am hurting in certain areas and made me feel sicker! Well, maybe tomorrow will be better!