And just get life over with. I'm heavily buzzed and depressed.

There's a lot on my mind right now, and despite what any of you say, there is absolutely no one to talk to. The conversation would consist of me opening up to you with mountains of paragraphs, and all you would say is "Aww I'm so sorry you went through that blah blah *insert cliche as f--- advice.*

I'm just venting about how I feel. I will never be able to get the proper help I need. F--- everyone and everything. I'm a lost cause.