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Originally Posted by Capriciousness
Most important thing here though in terms of shutting out your mom's voice and putting a cover over that part while you are talking to your Pdoc or yourself really about the honest truth of how bad it is right now and going IP....
You are a mother. And our role as a mother becomes before our role as a daughter.
You are a mother first before everything else.
I know you would do anything for one of your babies....including make sure they will always have their mama.
Don't think about your mom in all this. Think about your babies. Take a pic of them t the Pdoc app as well as what you write to remind you why it has to happen.
Hugs friend
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This is true. But, I have a nearly unhealthy (if not actually unhealthy) attachment to my mother. It is seriously irrational. I have to have her opinion on everything (big and small) and take it almost always. Even SHE tells me not to put so much stock into one person. It drives my husband insane. In fact, last night I succombed to her negativity and said "I'm sure I'll just tell him no anyway. It's hardly probable for me to go because of childcare." And it is true that my two youngest won't understand at all and will feel abandoned and my oldest will slightly understand what is happening because I likely won't be able to see her. It will be traumatizing to all three. I'm simply uncertain how things will go. I feel like I'm making too big a deal out of this anyway. It's just the friggin hospital and I will most likely feel the same entering as I do upon exit. I will just have to talk to my doctor and see what he thinks about it.