My anxiety has been up lately and I was hoping to not have to see my T but I've decided that it's best I see her 1x a month for maintenance. I'm seeing her on Monday and it's been about a month since I've last seen her. Lately I've had several dreams about my therapist. In my dream I'm driving by her house and seeing her rake leaves in her yard. The next day I drive by her house I don't see her outside but I see their are fewer leaves. Every day after that I don't see her in the yard but I see fewer leaves. I'm hoping to see her to make sure she's still there but I don't see her.

Another dream I'm walking into her bedroom and she's in bed with her husband. They don't see me but I see them. I then walk out and every day after that I walk into the room to see if she's there but she's not.

Does this mean I'm afraid of my T going away or abandoning me???