Would it be possible to add on another T while you're seeing this one/ I agree with the other posters here that your T is doing your transference attachment wrong. She's withdrawing from you while you're still very "regressed" and, in my opinion, she should wait for you to grow more. It looks like forcing the process, and that is unnecessary agony for you. There's enough deprivation in therapy just by time between appointments and what naturally happens, without her doing it on purpose. But if you could start seeing someone else, too, it could be an easier transition. I wouldn't even tell the first T. She doesn't deserve to know. But I realize it's so hard when you're in deep therapy and having feelings stronger than you can endure. Therapy should be a maturing process, not just a repeat of the trauma that started your problems in early life.