I considered that, I know there are a couple people on here who have more than one T. Perhaps this post has given me the kick in the butt required to find out if I can do this. I don't know if my insurance company will pay for two T's...and unfortunately I can't afford to pay out of pocket. Thank you Restin, yes, I'm in very deep therapy right now, and I know inside I feel a little needy. I try not to make her aware of this. She flat out asked me how I felt about her leaving, and I said I'm fine. I'm not devastated by any means, but I am sorry she's gone... we're in the middle of some pretty tough stuff in therapy right now. I also don't work in the summertime so I don't have that distraction. If I had work to go to, that would definitely help me stay in a better place. Yeah, she has really hurt me. But at the same time, I am also so attached and practically dependent on her. I try to remember who/how she was before she changed boundaries. And how safe I felt. I have a list of things to accomplish in the next week...to try to keep my mind and hands busy.