Just because the hospital wasn't helpful before doesn't mean it will be the same this time. Every time I've been there it's been different, even though I've been on the same 10 person unit with nearly exactly the same staff and basically the same schedule. It's been different in how it has helped me each time and how I've felt about it. The people there with you matter and the place you are in matters.

You've been fighting this as long as I've been on here. You did have a better time in there but mostly you've been fighting. You deserve the time and medical expertise to start feeling better and to have your meds straightened out so they are really helping you. Right now they just aren't and you've been through enough. I'm coming out of 6 months of hell and I can tell you that I so wish I had gone to the hospital a while ago. I waited that entire month for Latuda that I wasn't getting at all and I wish I hadn't done that. If I could go back in time I would have shown up at a therapy appointment ready to be admitted about 6 weeks ago when I had all but decided to do it and then gave up on it. I shouldn't have tried to wait out time for a med I didn't even know if I could get. Given that I started feeling better almost immediately with the new drug (depressed but better because I'm no longer agitated) I should have gone to the hospital and started a new AP long ago.

I made bad decisions. I hope that you don't make the same one.