I'm sorry to bum anyone out. It's just where I am right now. Yeah! I have 91 days clean from effing weed but I gained all the weight I lost 6 months ago and I gave away all my old clothes. Yeah! I have 99 days free from SI but I want to die right now. Oh wow, I'm really improving except I can't seem to fit in my clothes. The only positive thing I have to say about today is that I was too depressed to eat much. Instead, I hid under my blankets most of the day.