hey. i would feel the same way if i had your T. i told my T that i loved him and looked to him with some paternal transference. of course it was extremely scary. he responded so well, that he was touched, that it was not wrong, that it was like love for a parent. also, he didn't change anything about our relationship. i was/am so relieved that i said those things and he didnt push me away or tell me to go on to someone else. so yes, i would feel the same way if my T were your T and refused to hug me and then even say she hugs other clients. that would make me feel so rejected and like she didn't care. but, also, this may just be her style of dealing with transference. maybe she doesn't see it as an avenue of exploration. if i were you i would ask specific questions around this, around how she deals with transference typically, and then assess the situation. what am i gaining from current T? what am i missing out on? what are my true needs? how can i get these needs met appropriately and within boundaries?... asking really candid questions of myself before i go looking for someone else. just so i know where to start and what to look for