Hi Perna,

You are right in the sense that my T was able to see for himself what I'm dealing with. He basically just met my dad because everything out of my brother's mouth was dads words and even the way my dad would've said them.

The whole thing is very scary. It just confirms for me that I'm alone except for my son and sometimes my husband when he feels like being my husband...

I know I'm being negative but I can feel myself spiraling...I'm trying to recall what my T would say to me with times like this. I'm having an easier time seeing his face and remembering what he has told me.

That is progress I think! Someone on here mentioned about not being able to see their T's face outside of session. Sometimes I can and sometimes I can't. Isn't that odd?

I wish he would write a book or something, then his picture would be on the back cover and that would help