So I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and ptsd and I am on medication on it but it works on and off even with consistency. I'm not sure why my medication don't work all the time, but I'm starting to think maybe it's because I am in the same situation over and over. It starts out I find a new guy around my area, and I get too attached with the thought of him sometimes I don't even meet these people in person and I get so emotionally attached and they wind up ignoring me or rejecting me after awhile, because me throwing myself at them sexually doesn't work after awhile. I can't help it I do it over and over because I just want someone to love me and care for me and start a family with, but it can't happen I'm not sure sometimes I think I'm gonna end up alone because I am ugly and unlovable, and people tell me it's not true my friends and family I mean but it's just so many people prove me right. I am right every time about the guys I like they always end up leaving, and it's too the point I am so use to it and I am becoming so much worst with being insecure and needy in all aspects. I always feel alone and I crave love and affection way too much, and it isn't just with people I'm I like it's everyone I just feel so needy and desperate and weak and I just feel like I need someone to fix me which I know isn't good. Also let me clarify because I know I sound like a psycho stalker I have NEVER stalked anyone it has never gotten to that point where I stand outside someone's house or anything. The only person I ever put endanger is myself when these things happen mainly with guys I become more depressed to the point I am ready to end my life. I was working with my therapist for two years now he says I do this because I seen my mom stay with people who mistreat her, and I did see her getting abused multiple times badly but I don't know if that's why I'm the way I am there are speculations I was molested as well I remember some stuff but nothing crystal clear. Sometimes I feel I am so needy and annoying because all my life my mother has chosen men over me, and I never had a father although I had a grandmother but she struggled with depression as well so she's not a great person to talk to all the time back then. Anyway how do I fix this any suggestions any same here's?