Hello, hopefulgirl. I'm so sorry about your illness. It must be really hard to cope with such a devastating diagnosis. Are you in counseling by any chance? I don't really have any answers for you but wanted to let you know that I care and am sorry for your situation.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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