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Old Jun 21, 2015, 09:48 PM
CopperStar CopperStar is offline
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Is it still an auditory hallucination if

1. You know that it's not real
2. The voice is clearly inside of your own head (not coming from an outside source)

?

My pdoc asked me if I ever hear voices, I said no. Because I do not really "hear" voices ever. That has never happened. I just have entities which I figure are just part of my mental illness and not actually real, that talk to me inside of my own head when I have been wound up for a few days. It seems to happen when my sleep deprivation has been rolling for a few days, and if I lay down and shut my eyes. Basically if I remove outside stimulation like music, reading, the internet, if I have no distractions, that is when it happens.

A couple nights ago it was happening. It feels like basically dreaming even though I am still physically awake. It startles me because normally I control everything inside of my mind, it is my imagination which I control with my own will, so when something is suddenly like "LISTEN TO ME" it gives me this slow motion startle response. I open my eyes and see the dark room and know that I am just being my usual crazy self. I close my eyes again, try to relax as best I can, start feeling dreamish and like I am being submerged. Then suddenly "REMEMBER ME" and my heart skips a beat.

But I am aware that I am just being a nutter because I am having an episode, and I don't "hear" the voices outside of my own head.
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