i have felt really off the last few days. i'm not sure how really, just completely confused. my dreams and reality are kind of mixed together in a way...yet neither seems more real than the other.

i had something trigger me the last few days on and off, so maybe that is why i am feeling off. it just isn't a 'usual' type of dissociation either, nothing i'm familiar with, so maybe it's also partly why i am feeling afraid of it....i don't know 'what' it is so cannot accept it or just sit with it...except i know it's the only choice i have.

it just isn't making sense. can't focus, and my head feels like it's scrambled.