So I run the office,manage the staff,fill in when people call out sick or are on maternity leave (we've had back to back of that.),do personal errands for the business owner,etc.
I went to the owner and told him we need to get in compliance with some privacy regulations and I needed guidance on it. I chose an outside company recommended by his organization to help guide me. Before I could even finish telling him what it was about he flipped out on me. "If you can't do the job I'll find someone else who can."
I was stunned and hurt. I immediately lost all professional composure when I got back to my office and shut the door. Tears and sobbing were just uncontrollable. I've been with him for over 10 years and this is how he treats me.

Later he apologized and said he understood what I needed and we're moving forward with my plan.

I'm having severe anxiety about work now. He's always threatening people here saying we're all replaceable and we'll never find a better place to work. I don't understand! We made him a millionaire...all he has to do is show up,we take care of every thing else for him. He treats us like he's doing us a favor by giving us jobs and paychecks.

I made an appointment with my doctor to get some meds for anxiety and depressions bc I really can't live like this anymore and it's not like jobs that pay what I make are easy to come by so I have to stay.

Every night I dream of selling every thing i own and just running away. But the money always runs out and what happens when I'm too old to live like a wanderer? What happens when I need healthcare? I feel so trapped and unappreciated. I can feel the panic bubbling up inside me.