it is my sweet, loveable, fun loving daughter's fourth birthday today. while i have come to terms with not having any friends in real life that i can see or talk to and the likelihood that i probably never will, it saddens me that we have no one to celebrate with. no other kids to invite over. the highlight of our day will most likely be our visit from the family center lady who brings over toys and costumes to play my kids adore her. and later we will go to mcdonalds playland where she will follow other kids around like a hopeful puppy and hopefully they will play with her.
i don't believe it is for lack of trying. i gave out our number to all the parents at her preschool for summer "playdates" but that didn't pan out as no one has called.
i can only hope that as she gets older, her social skills surpass mine and she will make her own friends in spite of her mother's social rejection.
a happy day. wish it didn't have this sadness looming in the background.