I'm 19 and I've been seeing a psychologist for about a year now (for GAD and other issues I rather not discuss). Anyways, in the first few months I was actually excited to go and I never really got upset or anything, but for the past month or so it's been the complete opposite. It's not the therapist or anything, she's amazing, it's me. I can't tell her how I feel about anything, and if I do it's in an email and then in the session I pretend like I'm fine and I'm over the thing I sent the email about. I haven't seen her in 2 weeks and I was supposed to go today but I cancelled it because I didn't want to discuss the email I sent last week. ( I told her I cancelled because I was busy with school, which is sort of true). So this means I won't see her for 3 weeks and my next session is next week. To be honest I sort of like cancelling because this way I dont freak out for a week then feel horrible about myself after. I'm also feeling REALLY ashamed about my anxiety disorder and going to therapy is just making me feel worse by just sitting there and telling her about everything I'm afraid of.

Anyways I guess what I'm trying to get to is, is it normal to begin to resent therapy and feel anxious when discussing such personal things? Do I tell her the real reason I didn't go today or leave it alone?

Thanks for those who read it