Wow, I'm sorry for the struggle you've been going through. I love my ex-partner very much and I know her worth and I really believe she's the one for me. She wanted the break up not me. I just always wonder if she misses me or if she'll ever come back. She said I was litterally the best thing that has happened to her. I've helped her grow so much. She hit a bump in her recovery and then we hit a bump and she ran off. Now she says she isn't in love with me any more but idk if that's because of her mood change for the depression and anxiety. I miss her so much and I'm trying to be strong so she can get better and be strong. I guess I just get insecure that'll she'll never come back. But thank you for posting, it offered some since of comfort that maybe I haven't been forgotten.