Adespota I feel for you I struggle with hope too. Talk therapy comes in different forms and different approaches I have found some styles better than others. Maybe if you try a different school of therapist they can help. I prefer a more practical and directive approach rather than just talking psychotherapy type approach. Also if there is an issue you've been reluctant to address that may be the one to go for and a more directive therapist can help when courage fails. I sincerely hope you find a way forward. be kind to yourself