Christine...Thanks for the reply...I don't SI though I do have thoughts of death and illness quite a bit...In the past, I have overcompensated in relationships, giving and doing too much, and in casual associations, have found myself talking too much, explaining too much, as a way to be accepted. I've dealt with that and am not doing that now, but it has been a lifelong pattern.
I've had a severe inferiority complex since childhood, stemming from childhood abuse and even remember my father telling my mother,when I was preschool age, "You're going to give her an inferiority complex!, " which she did, being severely punished for the least faux pax or infraction which I didn't even realize as a child I was doing.
I'm age 56 now, and have dealt with much of this and am able to quiet the tendency to overcompensate. It has definitely impacted my romantic relationships. I've never really been successful.
Patty