i don't have advice to offer but can relate to having a part (or parts even) that are abusive, harmful, etc.

i have never understood those of mine or why they did/do what they do. all i know is trying to deal with it as best as possible is the only thing i can do. what is scary to me is a particular part of mine (that thankfully rarely is around) that has an incredible mental ability to take over (not physical which is for the best) and say very horrible things and try to convince me/others to do something really bad.

i had an incident maybe two years ago now where that happened. i physically was barely able to move, and i could only lie there and barely had any strength to even fight with that part. it was all internal even though i could not really see him, but i could hear him talking. it was so scary because it took everything i had to fight against his power. i wasn't able to talk to anyone or phone for help...and i think he took those options away (as in i was not really aware that anything much existed outside of what was going on internally). i am not sure if i was also blended with another more vulnerable, smaller part at the same time (confusing to try to explain that)....but things like that are very difficult to sort through.

some parts really want nothing to do with others or maybe (for me ) they are only there to cause harm...i am not sure. but i also wish i could find a way to actually communicate better with mine.....i used to be able to more years ago..and then it just stopped as some things got better in my life.

i don't even know how it all works for me to start with. more like a confusing mess it seems..no consistency or pattern for when one might reappear, etc.