Hello all,

This will be my first post here and I apologize if it's going to be long. I just don't know what to do right now and am looking for a listening ear and maybe some support.

A little backstory:
I am 26 years old and my husband is 28. We got married last year. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 four years ago and have been on medication ever since. I have also been through quite some therapy although I moved from where my old therapist was and am still looking for a new one. Since I am now almost 3 months pregnant, a psychiatrist advised me to stop taking my Lithium for now and I followed his advice.For the past 6 months or so I've actually been feeling like my Lithium hasn't helped me as much as it did in the beginning, so I'm planning on bringing this up next time I see this psych to figure out if I can switch meds when I can safely start taking them again.

Things have been tough with my husband from the get go when it comes to my BP. He is a wonderful person, but seems to have little understanding for my mental illness and has no idea how to handle it. Of course, he knew about my condition before we got married. I have bought him books on having a bipolar partner, and suggested he might see a therapist himself, just to have an outlet and maybe get more information about my disorder. He hasn't read any of them nor has he sought out any help or information for himself. I understand that having a BP partner is extremely difficult, but I don't know what else I can do to help him understand and he doesn't seem to put in any effort.

He can't separate me from the 'bipolar me', and often engages in arguments that keep going until I become desperate and just hide in the closet crying because I don't know what to do. He then gets mad and leaves, leaving me in horrible episodes by myself. I've asked him many times to just hug me and be there for me when I get like that even though it may be hard for him but instead he just gets mad and leaves. I don't want to blame him for my episodes but sometimes I feel like he instigates them, or eggs me on when I am already stressed and anxious. Today he told me he wants to leave me. I feel so hopeless. I am heartbroken because I feel like he hasn't even tried. I know I can't force him to do anything but I am just so sad right now and any kind words would be much appreciated.