I've had a lot of experiences over the years while without medication that I do not regret in the least, they were amazing. However I have also had plenty of experiences that were absolutely devastating. Don't get to cherry pick the good stuff. And when the bad episodes happen, I either get my whole life wrecked, or someone else has to be burdened with saving me, or both. It is a bittersweet thing to say goodbye to some things, in order to defeat other things.