I'm exhausted but I'm not. My body is exhausted but my brain is whirring. My body is starting to straight up hurt. It is beat. I feel to exhausted to do hardly anything. I want to go outside and have a cigarette but I feel like I can barely even move or I am going to physically just blow up like a bomb. Even though I can tell I'm physically exhausted and my body is aching and heavy, it's like my limbs are super charged with this angry electricity. It feels like I can feel my cells and they are on fire. I feel like I could scream, but I'm too tired to scream. I can feel myself laughing, but my face isn't actually moving, I think it's just flat. My brain is giving me imagery of what my body is doing, I think. I keep getting these intrusive image thoughts of just exploding or being tossed around like a ragdoll in a gory, violent mess. But I'm actually just slumped onto the floor like a sack of potatoes.

This has to be the most ridiculous type of energy or feeling I ever get in my life. It's so paradoxical and just ridiculous.

Anyone else get this sort of thing? I am seriously just exploding everywhere but the real world scene is just me doing absolutely nothing because I feel heavy as hell.