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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
Yes I've gotten that. After I've been losing sleep for a few days. My head shows me lots of images of me screaming or hitting things or throwing things but I'm usually just sitting still.
It is very strange. And uncomfortable. I have to use my distress tolerance skills when that feeling takes over. Take a hot shower, use soothing soaps, hold ice if I have to, etc.
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I am going to try that. I am going to have a cigarette and hold some ice in my other hand. I don't even know why but it sounds nice right now. I just wish I could convey this to my pdoc. We are choosing a med to start with in about a week and I feel like she doesn't really understand because I don't actually scream and smash things. I sit there and speak in a disoriented manner with my lands folded and try to explain that inside my head and inside my body it's a furious war zone but it doesn't show. And I can't let it show because then I can't stop it. If I let myself start to lose it I can't stop. I need her to just believe me and not make me prove it. Such massive UGH.