I've been dealing with bpd, depression, anxiety, and panic attacks for 14years. I feel like I've been on everything, tried dbt and therapy. My psychiatrist keeps touting eating PERFECTLY and taking hundreds of dollars worth of vitamins. She keeps lowering my effexor and zanax. I have two kids that have their own problems due to the abuse of their biological mom. My fiance and I have sole custody, which is great. I have been able to use lots of what I learned to understand, teach, and get them appropriate help, which helps me. However, I feel like I can't talk to my doctor all she says is she can't change my life. True enough. But between the depression with no energy motivation etc, the anxiety and being sooo Irritable, and the panic attacks that last hours I feel like a total failure. Does anyone have any meds a little more uncommon or mixtures that worked for you? Any input appreciated, thanks!

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