Hello, I'm Ho (by first name). I'm currently 19 today, but birthday is just a usually normally day for me. No cakes, no presents, just contented with a lovely bunch of friends and my family members.

I have not visited a therapist yet. However, I managed to chance upon this forum after I had decide to do some research on my bipolar behavior. I've read many users remark on this sub-forum for Bipolar which shared similar traits to what I am currently experiencing for the past close to 2 years.

I have my fair shares of cringe-worthy "Up" Times and really horrendous "Down" Times in my life. I cannot be sure what category of Bipolar that I belong to, but a more suitable word would be "Mixed". Reason being is because it cannot be foreseen, and it strikes with a devastating blow.

At times, there are random suicide thoughts, but I tend to dismiss them easily as "suicide is something you cannot reverse, and the possibilities of things getting better becomes zero".

Ironically, the person who influenced me strongly with this quote that changed my life entirely, turned out to be the person that I am currently avoiding as much as possible. Life's weird right?

My in-game user id is called "Therapist" in an old MMORPG game. I've listened to people whom seeks my attention to understand their woes, helped a guy from a verge of failing marriage restored to happy loving with his wife. Ironically, I cannot even get my life straight at all.

Well, that's just parts and parcel of life. Pardon if my English isn't good enough. Just expressing my thoughts and hope that I can talk to you wonderful guys more often!