The happiness ended..I am mad because I thought if I do everything right..it would fix me. I have no reason to feel sad today..other than the man I been seeing for 3 yrs called it quits after I found logic that he has found someone else..but I was sad before that..and it was the type of relationship that I knew would never last..I was just so lonely I let him use me and flirt w other women openly on fb..he never gave me a lot of attention..and financially worse than me..so its a good thing but it hurts still cuz n my heart I truly believe I will be alone forever.. Who can put up with my emotional rollercoaster..plus I have nothing to offer..I always broke..but I have a beautiful home an car.. But how can someone love someone that sometimes usually don't love themselves..I truly wish there was someone who would cherish me..and who would accept me. I know logically that I would only push them away..no one can deal with these emotions..no one understands unless they too are truly bipolar.. And no one can fix it.